6 months gone.. so much lost, not much gained?

Of course, the qualification for fire safety enforcement, fire investigation, fire fighting, rescue, hazmat operations seems like a whole lot of things to be gained within a short 6 months, not to mention physical fitness etc etc..

I often need reminders to remember how blessed I am to be where I am, going where I am going, God had blessed me plentifully this past 6 months and I can't say that I am not enjoying the benefits. However, it is sad to say that these had come at a cost, in terms of my relationship with God.

I have been granted wisdom in many ways, in this case, the observation of how similar human relationships are similar to that of our relationship with God. Perhaps, rather, the way relate to one another is modeled after our communion with God. Experiences forgotten, memories fade, this is the prime reason I suppose, as to why relationships fail. People forget things that matter, or worse, people get used to the things that matters so much so that they don't feel important anymore. Daily disciplines forgone, replaced by an easily distracted mind; pursuit for spirituality replaced with cheap thrills from tv, movie, games etc. I used to think that falling to these depths of spiritual deprivation were beyond me. So happens that this mind of mine is more depraved that I previously thought.

I prayerfully hope that I'll get past this season of mental/spiritual torment alive and walking closely with God again.